If you know you suffer from maladaptive daydreaming disorder the thought of whether you should tell your doctor or not, would have already occurred to you. whether you talk to your doctor or therapist about it is another matter.

After 3 or 4 days of constantly maladaptive daydreaming, I decided to Google what it meant, as constantly daydreaming was a very new and very strange thing for me. It did not start in childhood like lots of other people say it did, it just started a few months before I turned 38 years old. So that’s how I first realised that there was a name for what basically a daydreaming addict was. A maladaptive daydreamer.

Controlling The Maladaptive Daydreaming

I thought I could control my daydreaming, actually i first thought there was absolutely nothing wrong with a bit of harmless daydreaming. But after the months ticked by, I realised something was very very wrong. This was definitely not normal and i definitely had no control over my maladaptive daydreaming disorder that’s for sure. That’s when it hit me, I need help for this. The thought, should I tell my doctor about my maladaptive daydreaming disorder kept going around and around in my mind.

Should I tell the doctor about my maladaptive daydreaming disorder?

Should i tell my doctor about maladaptive daydreaming disorder?I decided yes, of course I had to tell the doctor, it was the only way as I can’t keep living like this. So I booked an appointment. You should know I live in London and my doctor’s surgery is always phenomenally busy. I don’t have a doctor I know, rather I just see whoever is available.

 

So the day arrives and I’m feeling extremely nervous, nervous about telling somebody what is going on, nervous also as although i want to stop this I also feel sad about giving it up. Also ,is the doctor going to think I’m schizophrenic and even if he doesn’t, I doubt very much my doctor is going to have a clue about maladaptive daydreaming.

The actual appointment

i told my doctor i had maladaptive daydreaming disorderSo the doctor calls me in and I sit down. What’s the problem he asks….

Well, I say it’s like this, do you know anything about maladaptive daydreaming? He looks at me and says, well a little (it turns out of course he didn’t). So I start telling him my story. That a few months ago I’ve started daydreaming and I haven’t been able to stop. It’s affecting my life as  I find it difficult to do my job as my mind is constantly dreaming and constructing plots and conversations between my characters in my head. I get annoyed when friends talk to me as that means I can’t concentrate properly on my daydream. I’m now late for things as it takes me longer to focus and to get things done. Since obviously my mind is focusing in something else.

maladaptive daydreamingThe first thing he says to me is: “Do you think the characters in your head and what they’re saying to you is real?”

I look at him like he’s nuts. “Of course they’re not real, it’s pure fantasy” I explode.

“Do you want to hurt yourself or others” he asks. I’m now thinking me being here is a very bad idea. “Of course not” I say in disbelief.  “I’m daydreaming, nothing about it is real, I’m well aware of the differences between reality and fantasy”. He finally seems satisfied.

I explain that I’ve suddenly began to get anxiety attacks, that I have trouble sleeping and I think it’s because I’m unhappy with my life. I’m not fulfilled in my job and have no idea what I am doing anymore.

 

The Prognosis

He prescribes me Sertraline, a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI), which is one of the most common drugs used to treat symptoms of depression and anxiety.

I know I won’t take it as I’m not a fan of pills and instead I ask to be referred to speak to a therapist as I want to get to the causes of why I’m feeling like this, not just suppress the feelings . So I’m on a waiting list to see one. I will update you and let you know how that goes.

Final conclusion

My doctor is the only person I’ve told about my maladaptive daydreaming disorder, and although I found some of the questions annoying it was good to be able to share this information. I was able to quit daydreaming for 2 days after seeing him but I let myself get pulled back. So yes, I think if you haven’t told your doctor, then do, it’s good to talk to somebody about what you’re going through and maybe if you’re prescribed medication, maybe that will help if you choose to take it.

 

Author

Hello, I'm Anna! I'm a 38 year old Maladaptive Daydreamer from London. I want to stop the maladaptive daydreaming, which is why I created this blog. Please excuse any typos, as you know I have MD so sometimes writing a post can take forever but at least I know you'll understand where I'm coming from.

3 Comments

  1. I get why you might believe that those questions where somewhat annoying but you gotta understand that when people usually hear about MD, they usually believe its schizophrenia, due to the similarity in symptoms. None the less I truly believe that what you did was extremely brave. I have been dealing with MD for 4 years and only now I have decided to seek treatment and answers, so your blogs have been particularly helpful. Please keep up the good work <3

    • You are very much informed. I love your website, you go straight to the point. This issue requres self determination and sacrifice to fight it. No pill or therapy can help of you are not willing to give up on some things that makes you return to daydream. Avoiding triggers at all cost and having a good sleep helps alot. But most of us return to our old behaviours after 2 to 3 days of success.

      • Yes, I’ve learnt that it has to completely come from you. Maladaptive daydreaming can be stopped but it takes strength, willpower and a lot of self discipline. It is hard to give up something that can make you feel so good.

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